My parents always kind of told me to not be too proud of things. I’ve heard similar things from a friend from Sweden once and from friends from a bunch of other countries and it’s just this kind of thing where you’re supposed to learn from mistakes and you’re not supposed to be too proud of your success because you’ll get complacent and cocky, I guess?
Well, today, I wanted to do the opposite. I kind of wanted to be proud of myself and started editing a video together. I cut a VOD from Twitch into tons of clips, deleted a lot of less entertaining stuff, and really enjoyed eventually creating this ten-minute long video that is sort of entertaining… At least it makes me chuckle here and there and I hope that it brings a smile onto other people’s faces as well.
Similarly, I’ve been very proud of a recent stream that I did over on Twitch and I’m looking forward to developing my branding and theme even more so that the Crypt becomes an actual place where people come to rest in peace without any of that negative stuff that living people have to deal with.
And then I’ve also been quite proud of my blog here. I rarely ever talk about numbers, mostly because I don’t know if I need to be proud of it… but… these past few months (especially ever since I started posting daily) have been amazing numbers-wise and while I know that this post will most likely not give that many impressions/views/etc., I am quite proud to announce that the past few months have been doubling previous numbers while this month is nearly tripling past months’ numbers, which is amazing. My review on Ape Out is reeling in some good numbers, despite it being only two days old, which is exciting because I’ve never been this proud of any of my reviews before. I feel like I actually got my thought process and my philosophy out and that Ape Out really enabled me to do so. Putting my thoughts into words is hard for me, especially since English my third language, but I feel like I did a good job this time around and I hope that I’ll continue to create (subjectively speaking/from my perspective) “good reviews” that I’ll be satisfied with. Reviews don’t normally get that many impressions short-term but they get more and more over time. The Steam Curator page is getting more impressions, however, and apparently, my blog is influencing quite a few views, which is a new one for me… and it’s great to see that. I’m essentially doing what I tried to do here: Give people reviews on Indie Gems that hardly anyone knows about! Really excited about that!
Now, obviously, my head’s still very much thinking that this post is stupid and that I’m misbehaving for actually taking pride in my work here… but I feel like it’s important for me to take pride in what I accomplish and to not dwell too much on what I could have done better. It’s something that I try to get better bit by bit, day by day. It’s a skill that I need so that my headspace doesn’t get too bad. Otherwise, I’ll end up overthinking everything and it puts me in a very bad space. So, today, I celebrate this stuff.
To sum it all up, I worked on a video, actually familiarised myself with DaVinci Resolve and even figured out how to render & save a project without googling it… I ended up creating some nice posts over the last couple of weeks and have been at it for 118 days now (including today)… and my streams have been good and I even have plenty of ideas in regards to animations I want to create for alerts, scenes, etc. Really excited about all of that so, today I want to cheers myself and pat myself on the back. Hope that doesn’t sound too conceited or cocky or whatever but this is just for me and my mental health. Thus,…